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I went out to have a drink with one of my best friends today and told him the dream I had, which I posted about previously... it's still on my mind. My friends theory about it blew me away! He said the Moooove sound is Ommm if you reverse the word and that it was possible Krishna revealing himself to me, in the image of someone I admire ( Dave Gahan) and it was him comforting me and giving me strength, which was right in time as following the dream I had HELLISH two days, scarily bad! I was amazed at his insight. It makes sense... I'm not religious, and not Buddhist, but it DOES make sense and is SO intriguing!!!
On a different note, I got pleasantly drunk on Absinthe... so feeling pretty good :)
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I was sitting somewhere high, maybe like an amusement part ride with Dave Gahan (!) He had longish hair and we were talking and all around us was his voice singing the word "Move" again and again, and between the word were some Hindu hymns and I could see somewhere some letters that also looked Hindu and I told him
" Oh listen, Depeche Mode is playing!"
"Is it"? He said, then listened and nodded his head
We sat listening and he was touching my right shoulder and stroking it and then I looked at his hand, he looked to be doing it so casually, but I kept thinking, his hand is almost on my breast!
It was a really nice feeling dream... I keep thinking about it, not on purpose, it's stuck in my head, it was so vivid, and I keep hearing the Move, MOOOOOVE, mooooove in my
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bed
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calm calm
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I've been biding my time Been so subtly kind I've got to think so selfishly 'Cos you're the face inside of me I've been biding my days You see evidently it pays I've been a friend with unbiased views Then secretly lust after you So now, you feel rusty You're bored and bemused You wanna do someone else So you should be by yourself Instead of here with me secretly Trying hard to think pure Bloody hard when I'm raw You're talking out so sexually 'Bout boys and girls and your friggin' dreams So now, you feel lusty You're hot and confused You wanna do someone else So you should be by yourself Instead of here with me secretly

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Current Mood:
weird weird
Current Music:
depeche mode - question of lust
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10580104_609834809130807_723730892823639258_nRead about this app Bazaart very cool
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good good
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As usual, I am behind when it comes to tech stuff, and I kept promising to use Instagram all the time and kept failing at doing so, and finally decided to really get into it. Practicing at the art of The IMG_2015
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anxious anxious
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My head feels like a ball of twine that's got tangled... make that a tangled ball of twine in fog... I can't seem to think clearly AT all... Some persistent state of confusion... Maybe it's still the Paxil withdrawal acting up... I hate this state. So damn... confused, and foggy and completely unclear on ANYTHING, don't know what to do, think, where to head... I suppose no use fighting it and just have to wait it out... It's useless to try to fight this. I LITERALLY can't think!
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confused confused
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My hellish withdrawal from Satan's Candy aka Paxil/Seroxat/Paroxetine continues...
Towards the nighttime ( when I would usually take it) it gets worse. I am ALWAYS nauseous, I can't eat almost at all. I manage to pick at something small, fat/dairy/sugar free and preferably frozen about twice a day on a good day, usually once a day. I have intense bouts of paranoia, the "Head Zaps" so unique to this "wonderful" medication are in full force. I have never had such insane headaches. I sabotage relashionships with people, because I give into either paranoia, or fear, or distrust, or whatever the HELL my brain comes up with. I know it's the neurons misfiring and my brain is getting back to it's natural balance, but my God, to LIVE through this hell is something else! I have these INSANE bouts of crying. They have nothing to do with my feelings or mood... It feels like someone just turned on a faucet behind my eyes and I cry for hours. No reason, just crying.
Sometimes there's this feeling... like your soul cannot be contained inside your body... I can HONESTLY say, you don't have to wait till you die to experience TRUE HELL!!
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Ok
Current Music:
Depeche Mode - Love Thieves
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